One Angry Juror

So I was called for jury duty.  This isn't the first time.  The last time, I called the number on the form, told them about my situation and was excused.  This time I got a giant fuck you from the city.

My situation, in case you're not familiar with it, is that I don't have a car and do not live close to the courthouse.  I was exempt previously because going to the courthouse puts an undue burden on me.  It's a 3 hour bus ride followed by me having to walk 5 city blocks.  Anyone sane would recognize that is a burden.

Not the city of Fort Worth, TX.  Their response? Take a cab.

I don't have the money for a cab.  Will they pay my fare?  Their answer? They're not obligated to provide me transportation.

Oh and by the way, if I fail to show up even if it's due to NOT HAVING THE ABILITY TO GET TO THE COURTHOUSE, they will fine me up to $1000 and put me in jail.

For what?  FOR NOT HAVING A CAR???? FOR BEING POOR????

How the fuck are threats and coercion legal?  Because that's what this is.  Either I shut up or go to jail.  Either I, a woman, walk 5 blocks alone in a dangerous part of town in the dark endangering my safety or I go to jail.  And this is legal.  They can literally imprison you for no reason in this country and we call this the land of the free?

And if we're honest, does coercion really make a juror fair and unbiased enough to render a fair and unbiased opinion?  This bullshit is probably why so many criminals walk free.  Because you can use threats to force the jurors to show up, but you can't force them to care about justice.  You can't force them to care about the trial or not do whatever they have to, even if it means a criminal walks, to get out of jury duty.  A jury is made up of 12 pissed off people who don't want to be there and really don't give a fuck.

I do not have the ability to be fair and unbiased right now because I am offended at being forced to be there in the first place.  I am pissed off that I'm losing pay at work and that I have to suffer an intolerable and dangerous commute.  I am not going to give two fucks what the trial is about. I'm not even going to pay attention.  I'm angry.

And when the time comes, I WILL REFUSE TO VOTE.

These fucking judges and lawyers and cops think their money and their title means they can treat people like me like shit and there's nothing we can do about it. They are not going to silence me.

You can make me go to your stupid courthouse but you WILL NOT make me participate.

And what fucking justice does our legal system even provide?  When a poor man gets life for an ounce of pot but rich boy Ethan Couch murders four people and gets probation for being too rich to know murder is wrong, THERE IS NO JUSTICE.  When I can get the death penalty for having a miscarriage but not a single one of those Wall Street fat cats who crashed the economy and then used our tax payer funded bailout to give themselves billion dollar bonuses has seen an HOUR of jail time, THERE IS NO JUSTICE.

I have even less incentive to give a fuck now.

Don't tell me to think of the person on trial.  If they have money, they're going to walk.  If they're poor, they were always going to lose anyway.  My vote doesn't matter on a jury any more than it matters at the ballot box.

Fuck it.  I refuse to cooperate.  I will not play nice.  No one threatens me.  I don't give a shit how many degrees you have.

Justice served cold

What is justice, when we boil it down to its simplest form, but revenge that has been sanctioned by someone of authority?

Should Freddie Gray have died? No. Was it intentional? Most likely not.  Despite what Black Lives Matter want you to believe. Despite what the media wants to say to make money from our outrage.  Truthfully, none of the officers charged MEANT for the man to die.  They were negligent. No one's denying that.  But this wasn't the cold blooded murder the kinds of people who burned down Baltimore are so desperate to believe it is.

Truth. Police brutality is real but it isn't and never has been solely targeted at African Americans.  And it isn't and never has been something only white cops are guilty of.  Until we acknowledge that, we're not going to change anything.  We had a chance to address this multi ethnic issue, but we let racists run the show and now it's too late.

And let's talk about that hypocrisy.  Six officers, three white and three black.  Who's being crucified in the press? Who's the villians across social media? The WHITE ones.

What about the black officers who arrested Gray, who helped load him in the back of that van, who could have stepped in and said "hey, this is racist" at any time, who could be speaking up NOW (if it were true) but aren't (because it probably isn't)?  Who, other than the prosecution, is holding them accountable?  No one.

Because black cops are automatically innocent and white cops are automatically guilty.

When William Porter's case was declared a mistrial, it wasn't because no one could decide if he did anything wrong.  It was because Porter is black and they couldn't decide if it was worth another riot to convict a black man of negligent homicide.

And the press skipped over it.  A blurb. They played it down.  Porter is a black cop accused of killing a black man.  They aren't allowed to acknowledge black cops do bad things too.

And social media and liberal activists let it go too.  Even agreed that the case against Porter was weak.  Porter will be retried and probably acquitted and the public will say justice has been done.  Porter, who no doubt had little idea that Gray would die and certainly didn't mean for it to happen, only played a minor role in Gray's arrest and will be declared innocent of wilful murder as he probably should be.

And then comes Edward Nero, a white cop who also only played a minor role in Gray's arrest and also, like Porter, never realized that Gray would be injured and never meant for anyone to die.  He was acquitted.  The prosecution tried to claim he was guilty simply by association. Because he was there. It was a weak case.  They couldn't prove he did anything wrong and he was acquitted.

But Nero is being vilified. Baltimore Bloc, a black activist group, has already called the verdict criminal.  All across social media people are demanding Nero face punishment, calling it white privilege and a miscarriage of justice. Claiming that Nero's race was the only reason he was acquitted. Nero, who's case isn't so different from Porter's, has been declared a murderer in the court of public opinion.

Why? What makes Nero more guilty than Porter? Answer? Nero is white.

If you've been paying attention to the media, to the left leaning journos, the Buzzfeeds, the MTVs and the blogs, then you know that the white man is evil and must be destroyed and the black man is, by virtue of the color of his skin, incapable of being racist.

But the backlash against Nero, proves that ain't true.  Those who are claiming miscarriage of justice for the white man but justice done fine and dandy for the black man are racist.  Yes. Black folks CAN be racist.

Be honest. No one cares what role Nero played in the arrest of Freddie Gray anymore than they cared about Porter's role.  They wanted Porter to get off because he's black and they only want Nero to be guilty because he's white.

Is this justice?  No.  No one wants justice.  They just want revenge on the evil white man.  It's the same reason they're trying so hard to redefine what the word racism means in order to justify their own racism.  It's the reason why black folks who speak the truth like I do are called coons and house niggers by other black folks.

It's not about justice.  It was never about being equal to the white man.  It's about making the white man slaves.  It's about revenge.

You can call revenge whatever you want to, but it doesn't make you righteous.

Baltimore is going to burn again, but it won't be because a black man died in a tragic accident.  It'll be because not enough white people paid for it.

Truth hurts.

Freedom by Consensus

Painful truth time.  Unless you live in isolation with no other living human being anywhere around you, you are not free.  Freedom is the biggest con we've ever fallen for.  It's a pretty myth but it's still a lie and it's a lie on so many levels, but today we're discussing the fact that anyone living around other people are subject to the whims of their neighbors.

What we have, when we're totally honest about it, is freedom by the consensus of the majority.  That means we're only really allowed to do or to say the things that the majority of our neighbors agree with.  We only have the freedom our neighbors ALLOW us.

Don't believe me?  Say the n word in public.  Dare to publicly criticize a gay person.  Call for prayer in school in public.  Comment that open carry is stupid out loud in any town in Texas.  Comment that you love the NRA out loud in any town in Vermont.  Tell a Bernie fan that you'll vote for Hillary if she gets the nomination.  Tell a room full of Christians that you're OK with allowing Muslims to build a mosque at Ground Zero. Lament climate change denial after a forest fire in Canada.  See what happens.

Perform a Wiccan ceremony in the city park. Walk around downtown in your bra and panties. Light a cigarette outside a school. Tell someone on food stamps that your taxes are paying for their meals. Fly the confederate flag.  See what happens.

If you don't get physically assaulted, you WILL get ostracized.  You will be publicly shamed, trolled, made to regret your mistake.  But it's not a mistake really.  You meant to say it, to do it.  You thought you were free to do it (that's what they say) and it's not hurting anyone so it should be ok, right? Wrong.

You're free to do a lot of things, but you're not free from the consequences and the consequences for having an opinion or doing something not approved by the masses are huge.  You will be bullied.  You will be crucified.  You will lose everything you care about.  You will lose friends.  You will be destroyed.

That's not freedom.  That's a lie.  Freedom is having whatever you say or do be accepted regardless of who's offended by it.  Freedom is when you're not blacklisted because you criticized the president or a celebrity or whatever.

You don't have freedom unless you give freedom to others.

People often ask why so many Germans went along with Nazism.  Fear of pissing off the masses.  Simply put, most Germans kept how they really felt about Hitler to themselves so they wouldn't offend anyone and be sent to a concentration camp.  If you think that's impossible or that it'll never happen again, Donald Trump. Anti Muslim rhetoric in every Christian Church and anti west rhetoric in every Muslim mosque.  It already IS happening again because it never STOPPED happening.

Of all the things I listed above, how many would you do?  Answer?  None.  You would never risk your reputation.

People who diverge from public opinion have their lives ruined.

And that's not freedom.  Freedom is a lie.

Black privilege

Black Americans have so much privilege it's ridiculous.  I'm not saying that to be racist. I'm not saying that to justify white privilege (which not all white people even have by the way). I'm saying it because it's true.  We baby black people in America because of all this guilt over something that happened before any of us were twinkles in our daddies' eyes and we've created a monster.

In what other country can you get a house, money and a college education handed to you because your ancestors may have been slaves?  They don't have scholarships for whites only because that's racist but black only scholarships isn't racist at all.  Really?

In what other country are black people allowed to physically assault people of other races and have it be ok in the court of public opinion because their ancestors may have been slaves so they don't know any better?  Only in America.  Because guilty white consciences have been making up for the sins of a handful of their ancestors for years and you make damn sure to take advantage of it but you don't appreciate it.

Black people can call white people crackers and other black people the n word.  White people can't complain about being called crackers or even mention the n word in an historical context because that's racist.  Black people can wear blonde wigs. White people can't wear afros because that's racist.  Black people can have black only clubs, but white people can't have white only clubs because that's racist. Black people can use improper grammar and it's an ethnic language. White people can't use improper grammar without being called stupid or being accused of appropriating black culture. Black people can tell jokes about white people and it's funny.  White people can't even ask a black person to pull their pants up because that's racist. White people aren't allowed to like rap music. That's appropriating black culture but black people getting government assistance (socialism invented by white people) isn't appropriating white culture.  Neither is their wearing of pants though they totally stole that from white Europeans.  Black people can be racist and tell us that they can't be because only white people can be racist and we believe them because they're black.  They've been through stuff.

White people have been through stuff.  There are just as many oppressed and impoverished white people as there are black people, but they're white so no one cares. Homeless white people are not more privileged than Beyonce.

In America, no one can hate someone because of their race except white people.  When black people hate white skin, it's because white people deserve it.  Because they're white and not because they personally did anything wrong.

But that's not racism. Remember, black people are incapable of being racist because they're black.

Black privilege is getting sympathy even when you do bad things.  It's the reason Black Lives Matter rioted over Michael Brown, a criminal who robbed a store and attacked a cop, but stay silent when black gangbangers kill black babies in drivebys. Cuz black lives only matter when it involves white cops.  Black cop shoots an unarmed white guy, the white guy deserved it.  Cuz he was white. Police brutality isn't a problem unless it's toward black people.

Black privilege is getting away with shit because you're black and blaming it all on white people and white people aren't allowed to disagree with you.  Black privilege is changing the definition of the word racism to justify your own hatred of white people and having the ability to brainwash white people into believing you.  That's more of that white guilt, but why do they have to feel guilty for something they personally didn't do anyway? Because black people tell them to and everyone has to feel sorry for black people.  Even when they're only suffering because of their own actions.

White people aren't oppressing you anymore and haven't been for awhile.  Your lack of family values, work ethic and drug problems is not because white people made you do any of it.  But black people aren't responsible for their own actions.  It's all whitey's fault. Black privilege.

Black privilege is the New Black Panthers calling for the genocide of white babies and not being labeled a hate group.  Black Panthers preach the same hate the KKK does but we sympathize because, well, they're black.  Blacks have a right to be angry.  That makes it ok to kill white people.  And Jews because blacks are God's true chosen people and white Jews stole Israel from them so it's ok to kill Jews too.  Or Asians or Arabs or Hispanics or Native Americans or anyone who isn't black because all life on earth began in Africa and blacks are the true humans and white people are mutations who raped black women and that's where other races came from.  Or whatever.  But that's not hate. Black people are incapable of hate.

Black privilege is screaming oppression at the grocery store or at your work (or anywhere) because your ass wasn't being kissed to your liking and being catered to in order to avoid a lawsuit.  Because black people always win those types of lawsuits.  White people, even with the racism documented on video, never do.  But they get called racist for calling out black people for being racist and privileged for daring to record said black racism on video.

What is affirmative action except the legal right to racially discriminate agsinst white people?

You're fucking privileged but it's racist to admit that cuz..  white people.  And we must hate white people cuz.... white people.

Don't talk to me about oppression.  You have rights.  You have freedom.  You use them everyday.

You hate white people and that's all your bitching about oppression and white privilege is all about.  Justifying your hate of white people.

And you get away with it.  THAT'S black privilege.

I know not all blacks aren't racists just like I know not all white people are, but fair is fair.  To be racist while condemning racism is stupid.  To say all whites are privileged and you're not is a lie.  To say you can't be racist because only white people are is hypocritical.  It's the pot calling the kettle black.

But that would make the pot racist. Black privilege.

Theists Suck

Theists and Isms are just as bad on their own as the wars they start but let's talk about Theists first. Islamic theists, Christian theists, Jewish theists even Atheists just suck as institutions.

We may think the human race would be happy with no more war, but the truth is we'd be bored.  A warless world wouldn't last a year before someone found a reason to hate someone.  We are a diseased species and always have been whether you think God created us that way or evolution or the aliens or the monkey king pooped us out.  Whatever you choose to believe, we suck as a species.

I grew up in the Christian faith but not in a fanatical condemn everything cuz the Bible said so kind of way.  We didn't even go to church every Sunday, but I was taught to believe in the Christian God.  Now, hardcore Christians will say I'm not a Christian at all.  I don't get that honor because I'm not fanatical enough in my faith.  I don't follow a particular sect and you're not really Christian unless you're a Baptist Christian or a Methodist Christian or whatever.  You're not a serious Christian if you don't have a preferred sect because you're not committed enough.

But I tend to favor the Baptist service when I do go to church.  Less ritual, you still get a message and there are some catchy songs without the fakers pretending to talk in tongues.  But that's not enough of a commitment.  I can't quote Bible verses.  I don't listen to only Christian rock.  I'm not against gay marriage and I don't want to eradicate all Muslims.  Being a good person and loving God isn't enough to be in Christian Club.  You have to hate everything and everyone they tell you to as well.  But didn't God say love thy neighbor?

In order for someone to be allowed to belong to a Baptist church (not just visit, but to have the right to take part in), they have to either be baptized by that church or show them their baptism certificate from another church.  That's right.  You get papers proving you've been baptized and you actually do have to prove it.  Otherwise, you're not allowed to join the church.  Just sit in the back and give them money.  In order to join a church, you have to ASK PERMISSION.  And you thought Christianity was all inclusive.

Jesus preached to the sinners. Churches want more of a financial commitment.

But here's the thing about Theists that pisses me off.  They all think they're right and they all condemn anyone who doesn't agree with them to a tee.

I believe in God.  I tell people I believe in God.  I believe that God loves people regardless of whether or not they're Christian.  And THAT'S why other Christians say I'm not welcome.  I'm not Christian enough for them.

The hate, man. It's everywhere.

But here's the thing that most Christians, Muslims and Jews have forgotten.  In the beginning, there was NO RELIGION.  God didn't create religion.  People did.  Earthly, sinful people created religion and it wasn't so they could spread God's word any more than the ancient Greeks built temples to keep their gods happy.  Religion was created to USE people's beliefs to covince them to allow earthly, sinful men to rule over them and to be given money.  No other reason. Religion is a billion dollar industry.  Don't believe me? Joel Osteen.  Mega churches period.  The Pope owns an entire city.  If you wanna get rich, be a preacher.

So I don't go to church every Sunday.  So I will never condemn gay people.  I don't believe women are inferior to men.  And I do this knowing that God wouldn't either.  I do this with conviction that God wouldn't have created something He didn't like.  And I don't need to be a fanatical, Bible thumping evangelical to be a Christian.

You're supposed to minister to the sinners.  Not beat the crap out of them until they reluctantly agree to do whatever you tell them to.  How do you get someone to accept Jesus into their hearts when they're so scared they'll say anything you want them to to make the pain stop?

This isn't just directed towards Christians. I talked about Christians because I know Christians the most but all Theists are the same.

Muslims, God never approved of jihad.  He never said go murder people if they won't follow Islam.  Mohamad was a drug crazed psycho if you say that's what he preached.  But just like Christian Theists, you force your religion down people's throats, condemn those who disagree with you and murder non believers convinced that God will let you have sex with 72 virgins if you do.  Really? Heaven is sex with a virgin?

You can tell from my other posts that I disagree with Islam on a lot of stuff, but I don't encourage their murder.  Murder is wrong.  I'm talking to you, ISIS and you, Ted Cruz.

And Jews, you're not God's chosen people.  You crucified his kid. Think you lost that privilege.  Stop bombing Palestinians in the name of God.

Killing in the name of God just pisses God off.

And Atheists, no one cares if you think God is made up.  Stop being douchebags about it.

You can believe in something and you can share that belief without being hateful.  Theists don't get that.  Theists create Isms and hate.  Theists take a perfectly good thing like a believe in God and turn it into drama, conflict and reason to kill eachother.

Theists suck.  Thank you, God, for not being a Theist.

Be master of yourself

Stop pretending your oppressed when you're the one responsible for what's happening to you.  I know there are some things that are out of our control but most things are very much IN our control and are no one's fault but our own.  We blame everyone but ourselves and even when something is beyond our control, we blame the wrong people anyway.

Racism is not the reason you're living in the ghetto. Poverty is.  And how can you say minorities are the only ones oppressed by poverty?  Have you seen your neighbors because they're a lot of white folks stuck in the ghetto.  Yet, you still want to blame white privilege instead of the greedy rich - THE REAL REASON SO MANY ARE IN POVERTY.  See, we blame everything on the white man when the real enemy is the rich and the rich come in a variety of colors including black.

I don't see Beyonce living modestly. She's living like a queen while the rest of us our lucky to get her crumbs.  She isn't defending the black race.  She's a sell out telling you what she thinks you want to hear so you'll keep giving her your money.  Jada, Spike, Oprah are all sell outs.  They don't care about us.

But that's for another time. Look, you may never be rich, but most of your problems are your own damn fault and that's no racist. That's not sexist. That's just being honest.

Why is the hood so violent and crime ridden?  White people aren't forcing black men to commit crimes.  No one is.  Poverty isn't the reason either because you can be poor and not rob people and it's damn sure not an excuse for rape.  Drugs? We blame the white man for selling them to the black man, but why is the black man buying them?  No one's forcing him to.  You attack a cop, you're gonna get shot or tackled or whatever so don't do it.

But we never take responsibility for our own actions.  We didn't get an education because we didn't pay attention in school therefore we lack the skills to find meaningful employment but it's not our fault. The white man won't hire us.  Yes, I know there are black business owners and black HR managers that aren't hiring us either, but it's just the white man's fault ok.

Dumbasses the lot of you.

You choose what kind of person you are and, for the most part, you choose what kind of life you have.  You choose to do good, you'll get good things.  You choose to do bad, bad things will happen to you.  And this is the way life works for EVERYONE regardless of color, sex or nationality.

Liberated ladies are always so independent until a man doesn't hold the doors for them.  Hypocrites.

Stop pretending you're a victim if you're not going to do anything to improve your situation.  Stop complaining you can't get a degree when affirmative action says you can.  They don't have white only scholarships but they do have black only.  They have Hispanic only.  They have women only.  Stop saying you can't find work.  You're not looking.  Illegal Mexicans can find work.  You can too if you want it badly enough.

Stop bitching about how unfair the cops are.  Go be a cop and change the way it's done.  Stop bitching that government isn't fair.  Go vote or run for office and and change the way it's done.

You're not oppressed.  This country is so far left, even white people hate white people.  They've been guilted into accepting how horrible you think their ancestors are (even when their particular ancestors didn't do the things you accuse all white people of doing) and they're so desperate to make it up to you that they blame themselves for your poor decision making skills too.  That's right.  Even white people don't hold black people accountable for their own actions.

White liberals are kissing your barely clothed asses while you're smoking weed, barely literate and bitching about how racist white liberals are.  You want to pretend you are oppressed so you don't have to take responsibility for yourself.

Well time's a coming when white people won't be around for you to blame.  White people will be in the minority soon.  They won't be in power.  Hell, the way black people talk, white people may very well be killed off en masse.  But they won't be around for you to blame anymore.

Then will you take responsibility?

You'll probably accuse the Mexicans of oppressing you.  I swear I'm talking to a wall.

Too poor to live here

I hate it when apartments insist that you make three to four times the rent in monthly income. That's as stupid as it is impossible for 90 percent of renters.  Especially when rent is so outrageous.

Think about what they're asking.  The average rent for a one bedroom where I live is $700.  That means I have to earn $2100 to $2800 a month to qualify.  Unless you're making  $20 an hour, odds are you aren't getting that a month.  Pretty much ALL jobs don't go higher than $15 (usually because they're being forced to pay a "living wage") but most jobs don't pay more than $12.  What does that mean?  People can't afford a place to live.

It's a system designed to keep poor people poor by making sure they're housebroke and keeping them out of sight by making sure they can only live in certain areas.

But I bank $1300 a month.  It's not a lot, but I can pay $800 in rent with $500 to spare.  I CAN afford the apartment.  I'm still not rich enough per their standards though.

It's not that much cheaper to buy a house than to rent.  That's a myth especially if you don't have perfect credit.  Plus you have to have A LOT of money to put down on a house and if you had that kind of money, you wouldn't be poor in the first place.  And renting a house costs more than an apartment plus you're often responsible for your own maintenance issues.  That means it takes money to rent or buy a house too.

So what does that leave us?  The ghetto.  The hood.  The barrio.  A trailer park.  Out of sight where the rich don't have to take responsibility for what they've done to us.

Poverty doesn't know race or immigration status.  It's equal opportunity.  The hood is actually the most diverse place in the country because everyone who is poor ends up there.  Black people, white people, Mexicans, immigrants, legal ones and illegal ones, all get shunted into the only place they can afford.  There is no white privilege when it comes to poverty.  You're just as screwed as everyone else.

If you make enough to pay the rent in full, that's all that should matter.  You shouldn't be denied a home because you're poor.  We as a nation should be ashamed of ourselves for the way we treat the working class.

Everyone deserves a home.